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December 9, 2024
Listen— I am a lot of things. Completely sane? Not really. Super cool? Wrong again. I’ve never fully felt like I’ve belonged anywhere. I’ve often been the target of the “joke” & learned to accept it. A few years back I just fully stopped caring about what people think. You can’t control other people’s opinions of you, and if it’s out of your control then it’s not worth a second thought. Obviously, with that being said, it’s not like I’ve trained myself to be completely deprived of emotion (I am a woman after all - I have a conscious). But also, like, IDC. So that’s why I’m starting a Style Blog at 36 years old with no following & a slew of silent knives pointed at my back.
The Beginning of My Style Story: A Love Affair with Fashion
Unconsciously trying to find a niche can be maddening. I’ve tried to fit in & mold myself in places I was never welcome. I tried so hard to be friends with girls that wanted nothing to do with me in high school, I tried to be a hipster in college, I tried to be an alcoholic in my twenties. None of this worked out for me. Like, trying to seem like an intellectual by learning how to knit - wasn’t my calling. Pretending to be into Dave Matthews Band - cringe. There is always one thing that stuck with me through my decades-long walkabout - my love for fashion. There’s a WHIMSY to fashion.. an unspoken language that communicates who we are without saying a single word. For as long as I can remember, I’ve been captivated by that magic. Style, for me, isn’t just about clothes. It’s an extension of self-expression, a way to haul around pieces of your personality on your back.
I can’t lie now & say that I was a an instant trendsetter. All I did for most of my life was follow trends. Fast-fashion trends. Urban Outfitters, American Apparel, H&M, etc.. I constantly found myself having this mass amount of clothing but “nothing to wear”. I was the only one that saw myself this way because people would tell me I was just so stylish. But it’s because I’d be wearing trends - I’d feel good in the clothes for a day but then they’d rot in my closet because it became obsolete. I’d want something new. Been there done that.
I’d spend hours lurking on TikTok, lowering my vibration & sinking deeper in the void (profound), too embarrassed to post anything, etc.. I learned a lot on that app - including the term “capsule wardrobe”. It was like my third eye opened. It took me years to figure out that investing in one piece rather than spending that same amount of money on 12 things made me appreciate it more. I’m talking like 32 years old. But at this same time I wasn’t comfortable in my own body because I was having back to back kids & discovering a thyroid problem. So, I was still working out kinks while also having daily menty B’s because of children & hormones.
So, to ME, style isn’t just about following trends or owning designer labels. To me, it’s about creating a wardrobe that feels authentic. Over the years, I’ve fallen in love with the art of balancing high & low, thrifted & new treasures with timeless, higher-quality pieces. A bold print, a statement bag, or even a good white tee styled just right has the power to transform not just your outfit but your mood. It’s about the mood. it’s about how it makes you feel. Don’t ruin the mood.
I’ve learned that style is personal, but it’s also universal. It connects us. It’s why I started this “journey”.. sharing my favorite brands, styling tips, and outfit ideas in hopes of inspiring others to embrace their own unique fashion stories. That’s really what I want to do, help others. I want people to feel comfortable, as I was never made to feel comfortable for the majority of my life. It’s an awful feeling.
That’s where I’ll leave this for now because I’m not trying to write a novel.
byyyyeeeeee
